Problem with my results, so frustrated

so now there is a problem with me getting my end of year results from college. it seems my account is blocked, and I cant access my results. It seems the block is on the account since the last time I was in school, which was in 2013. I dont know why its blocked, but I am unable to access the results for my certificate in mental health in the community, so I had to email the fees office and see if they will remove the block. I got an generic email back saying they were very busy and that I should log a student query which I did, but they said then the email would go to my student email address, and I dont know how to access that. So I am just hoping that they’ll see the first email I wrote to them using my personal email account and that maybe they’ll respond to that. I really am unsure why they put a block on my account, as far because as I am aware all fees were payed at the time, even though I dropped out of that course in 2013.

Its annoying, to say the least. I want to know my overall results. I want to know what I got!

I hope they’ll get back to me soon!

Chicken enchilada dip

Chicken Enchilada Dip
2 (10 ounce) cans mild green chile enchilada sauce
10 (6 inch) corn tortillas, torn into 3 inch pieces
4 cups pulled cooked chicken breasts
1 1/2 cups sour cream
1 (12 ounce) package shredded Colby-Jack cheese blend, divided
1 (10 3/4 ounce) can cream of mushroom soup
8 cups shredded iceberg lettuce
1 (15 ounce) can black beans
3 tomatoes, diced
Spoon 1/2 cup enchilada sauce over bottom of a greased 4 quart slow cooker. Add enough tortilla pieces to cover sauce. Stir together chicken, sour cream, 2 cups cheese and soup. Spread 2 cups chicken mixture over tortilla pieces. Top with tortilla pieces to cover. Drizzle with 1/2 cup enchilada sauce. Repeat layers twice, ending with tortilla pieces and remaining enchilada sauce. Sprinkle with remaining 1 cup cheese. Cover; cook on low for 4 hours. Place lettuce on plates; top with chicken, beans and tomatoes. Serve hot.
Makes 8 servings.

Today in therapy…

Therapy today was good. we talked a lot about the anxiety, and eileen had us do some EMDR to help with it. We worked with the pulsers, and she had me bring up a safe place, somewhere where I felt peaceful, calm, and soothed. I decided that I wanted to be back at torc waterfall, where I went last summer, because I loved the sound the water made, it was so calming. So using the pulsers I was able to bring up the image of it, and then Eileen had me come up with a word that I could use when I wanted to go there in my mind, so I used the word soothing. She said, when I said that word that immediately the images of torc waterfall would come into my mind. She told me during the week, if the anxiety gets really bad, that I should do the butterfly hug, which is an EMDR exercise, and say that word soothed aloud, and doing both of those things, I’d be able to calm down again. The anxiety felt so bad this morning, it really felt as if I was going to die from it. I can honestly say it was the worst its ever been. When we first got to our session, we were dissociating a lot. Actually it was Emily who was out at first, and it was a little while before Eileen was able to get Liz out and then get me back again. She had to keep telling us over and over that we were safe, and there was no immediate emergency. We kept wanting to run, that happens to us sometimes, we’ll want to run away. It usually happens when we are very distressed or very triggered. Overall though we did have a good session, and we were really happy when we left, calmer, more able to function again, and when we got home we slept for a few hours, because we were drained, therapy always makes us tired, especially if we’ve been doing EMDR.

Bee’s Poem of the Day: Lost

Hello, out there dear readers of Therapy Bits. How are you doing today? I hope things are going well and that this new week brings only positive experiences for you. Please remember, even if you feel lost you are never alone as my prayers go out to you!

This week I am having a look back at old poems, that were inspired by music. Maybe I write the odd new one too. Are you inspired by music to write? And if which music inspires you the most?

My first poem is from January 2015 but I have edited it for this post. If you want to see the original have a look here on my post on “The Bee Writes…

This poem was inspired by “Come with me now” by the Kongos

Lost

Lost
in my
thoughts
of
feelings
I
never had.
I’ve
come with him
and
he took me
down.
Down
so deep.
So deep
down.
BUT
my feelings
emerged
so I
lost my
thoughts.
Happy Monday to you all despite everything!