So earlier today a guy from my broadband tech support team came out to my house to fix ongoing issues with the connection. It kept dropping. This morning, it was down for hours. I wasnt sure why this was happening. I have Efibre, so it really shouldnt happen at all. He looked at it, and then he said he’d test my line. He did that, and it looked like my upload speed wasnt set high enough, so he reset that first. Then he tested again, but there were still faults on the line, so he said he’d look at the phone sockets, and so he did. And what do ya know! The phone sockets were hit by lightning! Thats what he told me! When we had the last storm lightning must have fried them! So that is why the connection was dropping, so he installed all new phone sockets for me, and woohoo we’re back in business, everythings fine again! I was never so glad than when he fixed it, you should’ve seen me this morning when it was down, I had no clue what to do with myself, I literally was twiddling my thumbs! I could read, and I did, but that was about all I could do. He was a very nice guy too, very chatty and we had a good chat as he worked. So at least its fixed now. He gave his number to me just in case there are any more issues. There shouldnt be though. I was just stunned when he said the phone line was fried! I never expected that to happen!
Well guys, I am rethinking things. I may actually be able to stay in college after all. I panicked earlier, when I saw that F on my grades. I couldnt cope with it. But my friend denise emailed me, she said she got an F too. And she said she knows 8 others who also got f’s. So something is clearly up. Something is a miss.
I feel if I can sort it out thenI may stay in the course after all. Despite my symptoms, and despite what is going on, I do like the course, I enjoy it, I enjoy learning.
Denise has emailed brenda our coordinator. So have I. I also sent an email apologising for my earlier one I sent her.
I hope this works out. I am glad I wasnt the only one who got an F.
I am so sad tonight. I had to quit college. I failed an assignment. I couldnt believe I got an F on it. I was heartbroken. I decided the pressure was too much. I cant keep everything going. I have way too much going on right now, what with symptoms flaring, and ptsd stuff coming up. Also I dont think I am cut out for college. I’m feeling pretty disheartened, but it was for the best. I think and feel I did the right thing.
We were almost done for the term anyway. I stuck it out as long as I could. But with all that is going on I couldnt keep it up. I feel like such a failure.
I feel like I constantly start things but dont finish them. This course was meant to help me out with extra training to help with my volunteering, but then, part of me says, well, I am already the expert, I have mental illness, I dont need training in it.
I guess its ok. I had to do what I had to do.
Just feel bad about it. I just emailed my coordinator to tell her of my plans.
I hope she’ll be ok with it.
Did you know?
That today is Fingerprinting Adoption Day? In 1902, Denmark became the first country to adopt fingerprinting as a way to identify criminals. The first documented fingerprints were taken in India in 1858 by Sir William J. Hershel.