the rest of my friday has been uneventful. again, i couldnt stay awake. i think i got overheated. i tried to sit outside in the afternoon but the tiredness got the better of me. i told mom i was going to go lie down for an hour. that ended up being 2 hours though.i woke when mom and my sis came back from grocery shopping. we all ate together. mom made a salad and she also made sandwiches for me because i did not want salad. she bought this gorgeous bbq chicken, it tasted so good. she also got this lovely wheat bread that I had my sandwich on. i’m doing really well health wise. i just had the wheat bread with beef and one slice with chicken on it for dinner. mom tried to get me to eat more but i said i had enough. i didnt get to do any exercise today though which i am kind of disappointed about. i asked mom if she wanted to go for a 15 minute walk but she said she was too tired. no worries though there is always tomorrow. my sister wont be coming over to moms tomorrow because she has to pack her cases for going on holidays next week. so it will just be mom and dad and me until sunday. we were going to go to a vintage car show on sunday but my sister said she felt tired after her week at work so we might just go to a local park with the kids instead. once i get my walk in tomorrow i’m good. i might go visit my friend in the afternoon too. my friend norma that is. i also have to finish packing for respite on monday. i’ve been watching tv for the evening and just relaxing. hope you’ve all had a good day today.
yep, it is really hot here today, but i’m loving it. i’ve been out in the garden all morning with nitro. i started reading my new book, and almost fell asleep. i literally closed my eyes for a couple of mins and only for my mom asking me if i was going to sit up before i fell off the chair i would have probably fell asleep. i read 3 chapters of my book, the darkness within by lisa stone. it seems good so far. nothing like what i am used to reading. i have other books on the go too. i am still reading runaway girl by casey watson. that one is very good too. mom and my sister are going grocery shopping this afternoon. my sister is working until 2 though. she left the kids here with mom and dad. my sisters off on holidays next week. man i’d love to be her. she is going to portoriko for a week. i’ve been feeling incredibly tired for the past few days. i dont know if its just the heat, or if i am ran down, or what. but i slept good for the past two nights, yet yesterday when kristen left i lay down and slept for 90 minutes, and i woke in the middle of the night last night, couldnt get back to sleep so got up and caught up on some blogs for a while. eventually i was able to go back to sleep though which i am glad about. my mom said my patterns must be all wrong. she’s probably right. i thought it might be meds doing it to me but it really cant be, i’ve not started any new meds or changed the dose of any of my meds. mom asked dad and me what we wanted for dinner today. i told her i wasnt really hungry so a sandwich would do me. we had scrambled egg and toast for breakfast. its hard to eat when its really hot. she said she might buy chicken or roast beef and make sandwiches. thats fine with me, i like both of those meats. i plan on going back outside for a while later. i have some tv shows on my computer though, so it may be that i’ll watch some of those instead of going outside. if i stay inside i can stay cool. i might even listen toa podcast.
I want to wish you all a happy friday. I hope you have a great day.
silent tears fall
no one sees
i am alone
alone and afraid
the night is long
urges to self harm fill my head
but i breathe instead
counting the breaths
like my therapist showed me and encourages me to do
slowly the hours passed
the urges to cut my skin faded
and were replaced by intense sadness
this is me, this is my truth
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i’m having a good evening. I had a phone check in with eileen, that was lovely. we talked about my upset over me thinking i had a break from therapy coming up. now that i dont i am very relieved. i told eileen as much. i told her i felt so panicked thinking i wouldnt be going to therapy and knowing i wouldnt be seeing her. i said it felt like that when i did go back that she wouldnt be there. she said that it sounds like some very young parts are activated, and they are desperately afraid that something bad will happen to her while we are on respite. she reassured us that it wouldnt and she’d be fine and she told me if i needed to text her that i could.
i’m at mom and dads house now. i’ll be here until i go to respite on monday. mom picked me up at around 6 this evening from my own house. she’d been taking my dads brother to the ear nose and throat hospital so on the way back she picked me up. saved me money on a taxi so i was thrilled. my home help had come at 5, i was having an omlette for dinner. it was a bit of a rush to get it made and eaten before my mom arrived. i managed though, the omlette had cheese and bacon in it. it was delicious.
i read that the weather here for tomorrow is supposed to be warm and sunny. i hope thats true because if it is i’ll take nitro outside in the garden, and while we’re out there I’ll read. I got a new book today called the darkness within by lisa stone. lisa stone is also known as cathy glass. she is writing under another name i think so as not to mix up her genres of books. cathys books are memoirs and are true life accounts of foster children she’s looked after. this book is fiction i believe and is a crime novel. i havent actually read the synopsis. I just bought the book because I love cathy and so I thought if she’s written it I’d like it even if she is using a penname.
Baked French Fries
2 large potatoes, peeled
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 tablespoon vegetable oil
1/8 teaspoon paprika
Preheat oven to 450 degrees. Cut potatoes into slices 4 inches long and 1/4 inch wide. Place in a bowl of iced water to crisp. Just before baking, turn out onto paper towels; pat dry. Spread potatoes in one layer in shallow baking pan. Sprinkle with oil; shake pan to spread oil evenly over potatoes. Bake for 30 to 40 minutes, turning frequently, until golden brown. Spread potatoes onto paper towels. Sprinkle with salt and paprika.
How do you like to spend a rainy day?
binge watching my favourite tv shows, or reading a good book
List at least five favorite treats. (They do not have to be sugary).
1 hot chocolate
2 getting my nails done
3 caramel mackiato from starbux
4 going to the beach
Where’s your favorite place to take out-of-town guests?
I rarely have out of town guests, but if I did I’d take them to blarney castle I think to kiss the blarney stone, then they’d have the gift of the gab!
You are trapped in an elevator, who would you want to be trapped with?
Oprah winfrey or maya angelou
Optional Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?
I’m grateful for my 2 pounds weight loss last week. Next week I am looking forward to going on respite.
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