I don’t feel good. I am feeling weepy.

I feel very flat.

My CPN Sarah rang me, and we chatted for a while.

That made me feel a little bit better.

Then I worked for a bit, but I wasn’t feeling it.

I should have taken the day off. I didn’t feel like listening to others problems today.

Now I’m sitting here feeling as if I could burst into tears at any minute.

It isn’t just one thing, it is a combo of things causing me to feel upset.

I feel very anxious. I am having body memories. I hate it.

I miss Nitro. Whenever I was sad or scared, he’d comfort me. Now he isn’t here to do that.

It is so unfair!

Why did he have to die?

Why do I have to remember?

God I hate this!

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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