The journey to healthy self-love

Before self-love becomes a liberation, it is first a burden.

There’s anger at those who treated you poorly when you didn’t know to ask for better treatment. The anger at yourself for what you’ve allowed.

There’s the grief for lost time.

There’s the strangling necessity to push people, things, ideas out, out, out because there’s no room for them.

There’s the loneliness and isolation that accompanies the growth of self.

There’s the new boundary lines, the new range of the word no, the opening of eyes that would rather be shut, and the terrifying realization that love isn’t synonymous with joy. It’s synonymous with growth.

And growth isn’t bliss. It never was.

The pinnacle of self-love is not endless ecstasy.

It is a heart-breaking process of undoing the life your unloved self-built, brick by unworthy brick.”

Jamie Varon

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

2 thoughts on “The journey to healthy self-love”

  1. I love this post. It is so extremely true. Self love and being ok with being alone was so very hard for me. It isn’t something that happens overnight. It took me years of being alone working on myself. It isn’t something once achieved is just there either. It is always something you have to work at from now on.

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