Has it really been six weeks?

It has been six weeks since I saw Dr. Barry! But I saw her today, and we had a very good appointment. I had to wait 2 hours though, which I was not impressed about. But it was so worth the wait. We talked a lot about Nitro. And about my grief, she knew Nitro well, so it was good to be able to talk about him with her. We talked about my anxiety, and recent health scare with my heart, and with my blood sugar. She said it is probably all stress related, but I said my diet could be part of it too, as since Nitro passed away I’ve been going a little crazy and going from not eating, to eating all the wrong foods, etc. I also told her about the zopiclone giving me horrible restless legs. She took me off the zopiclone, and she gave me a week’s supply of Valium, 5 MG tablets, and she told me to use them whenever I felt I needed to, she said she’d leave that up to me. I was so thankful that she gave me some Valium, as I was out of it and I am out of Xanax also. I told her that my supervisor had asked me to go back into the office to work, but that I was dragging my heels about doing it, I am nervous, and I still am fearing catching covid, I certainly don’t want to catch it or bring it back to my mom. She asked me if I’d like to do some group therapy. There is a relaxation and meditation group and an anxiety management group and she said she’d refer me to them if I want to try them out. I do, but I have to try to make it work around my schedule. I said I’d think about it, and get back to her about it the next time I see her. She asked me to make one small change today in my diet, so that I can lower my blood sugar, so I said I’d do that. I’m still thinking about it, but I will definitely be making some changes over the next few days. We talked about my sleep, and I told her it’s pretty non-existent right now. We’ll be working on trying to fix that over the next few weeks. That was all we discussed, and I’ll be seeing her again in two weeks. It feels good to be back in my regular routine again, I missed her and I feel better now that I’ve seen her again.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland. View all posts by Carol anne