Inside my head D-verse OLN

Inside my head

By Shirley Healy

The body tremors

I’m inside my head

I think it’s safe here

I have nothing to dread

All is dark

as black as can be

I don’t have to look out

And I don’t want to know

I am free here to shout

At the top of my lungs

No one can hear me

In the corner of my mind

I cry the tears no one can see

It’s too hard to feel things

The struggle is hard

I tried it once

But now I’m barred

I crack easy into pieces

I am as fragile as glass

So I crouch down inside

And wait for the memories to pass

When will it be safe

What’s over is not done

When will I be able to steal a look

At the sun

I want to feel the warmth on my face

But I’m trapped in my head

Hiding under the covers

Glued to my bed

When can the little girl stop convulsing

With memories neither of us wants to see

I want to know when my life will stop repeating

When can I come out of my head and be free

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

16 thoughts on “Inside my head D-verse OLN”

  1. I am so glad you write and also so glad you share your words here.
    “What’s over is not done” these words ring true…..
    may you feel the sunshine on your face and know you are loved by many.

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