I’m not coping

I’m not coping well at all today. I feel so down. I am so sad.

The house is too quiet. I miss my boy. I miss the pitter patter of his paws on the floor.

I miss him coming into the bedroom and resting his head on my lap.

I miss snuggling into his soft fur.

I miss his bell ringing.

God there is so much that I miss about him!

My heart aches when I think of him!

I know he was old but why did he have to die?

I wasn’t ready to say goodbye! It was so sudden!

He didn’t even act sick, but he was very sick.

And he wagged his tail right up until the very end. When the vet sedated him, before the sedative took effect, he was standing next to me wagging his tail.

Oh how I wish I could hug him one more time…

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

38 thoughts on “I’m not coping”

  1. Oh gosh, I’m so sorry to hear this. My two four-legged babies passed a year apart. It was very hard but I know it was the kindest thing to do for them. I still miss them both but it does get easier. Wishing you lots of love. KL ❤️


  2. I’m there with you Carol Anne. Even all the puppy fixes I had locally after we lost Maggie didn’t take away the pain. It will be with you for a while, but remember you were there for him and loved him enough not to let him suffer. Easy words to say, but only another pet owner truly understands this kind of loss. We have all been there ❤

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    1. Thank you sweetie, I appreciate your kind words I know, it doesn’t seem real at all, I can’t believe I am alone now, I want another dog sometime but not yet I can’t get one just yet I need to grieve first 💞💞


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