Heart breaking news

I am writing with very sad news.

Nitro crossed the rainbow bridge yesterday.

I took him into the vet and she did blood work on him. It turned out he had diabetes, a heart condition, and arthritis.

She said that his pancreas was shutting down.

I could have tried to manage it, but she said I was only prolonging the inevitable.

So I knew the best thing to do was to let him go.

He passed away very peacefully, and I was with him when he passed away.

The vet was really lovely. She explained everything to me as she went.

I will be getting him cremated and I will get his ashes back in six to 8 weeks time.

I can’t believe my beautiful loyal, loving dog is gone.

Life is going to be so hard now without him.

He will always have a special place in my heart.

I kept waking up last night thinking I could hear him and it was so weird not to have to get up to let him out.

I miss him so much already. I just can’t believe he’s gone.

RIP Nitro, sweet boy.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

66 thoughts on “Heart breaking news”

  1. Oh Carol Anne. I’m so sorry for your loss. We lost both or dogs last December and it was just so heartbreaking. I understand how it feels and the coming days will be tough. It is best to think that Nitro is in a better place now. No more pain and now playing like the healthy pup before. Sending virtual hugs to you 💛

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  2. Oh carol anne, this is so, so sad! I’m really sorry. Take all the time you need to grieve this loss. I remember when we lost our family cat Pluk when I was nearly 15, I kept having these same feelings as you thinking I could hear him.

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  3. I am so sorry. Prayers for healing and comfort. The poem that I wrote today is inspired by the passing of Nitro. I know that there are no adequate words but I hope that this poem brings you some comfort.

    Ode to My Furry Friend

    Rising above the clouds
    to my eternal home
    feeling excited and sad
    for leaving you alone

    Now in Heaven
    looking upon your tears
    remembering the times we had
    oh, those were wonderful years

    I am always with you
    brushing against you in the wind
    hugging you with the leaves
    my barking heard in the songs of the wren

    Giving kisses with the rain
    resting quietly against your knee
    enjoying the smells of treats
    loving your smile with glee

    Eternity is upon us
    running and laughing again
    time apart is an illusion
    for with love there is no end

    copyright 2023 Debbie Pierce

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  4. Oh, so sorry to hear about your dear Nitro. He was a very special friend and helper for you over the years. We who read your blog have come to love him, too. He will be missed. (((Hugs))) ❤

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  5. Awwww goodness me what a shock to hear about this! I’m so so very sorry. I think it was very brave and selfless of you to let him go. Sending hugs to everyone in your system who needs them and soothing Mishpurrs if they’d be of any help.

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  6. I am so very sorry for you, Carol Anne. I know how much Nitro meant and still means to you. He won’t ever leave you, since he will always remain in your heart – when even that won’t suffice for now. Sending you big hugs 💖

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  7. So sorry to read this Carol Anne, my thoughts are with you and sending love. ❤️ I lost my beautiful Mowgli April 4th last year and so I feel your pain x I had his ashes returned in a biodegradable tube which I planted in a little corner of the garden. Above the tube I planted a palm tree as he was a rescue dog I brought back from India. Every evening I light his battery la tern so he is never in the dark. Tending his garden gives me great comfort and although it doesn’t take away the pain it does help me manage it as I always have somewhere to go to feel close to him. Very kind regards Alan 🫂

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