The Sunday Muse 23 January 2023

I stand so still

As he shouts at me

Beats me

I don’t hear the words

As an idea forms in my mind

This time, will be the last

I can’t take any more

His days are numbered now

For years my life has been so hard

No more

No more abuse

He can’t hurt me now

I run to the kitchen

Grab a knife

As I walk back to his room

I wonder

What will happen once he’s gone

Without thinking

I plunge it into his chest

I don’t wait for the outcome

Instead I run out of the house

Into the street

And I stand in the bucketing rain


What now

Where do I go?

I begin to walk

And never look back.

The Sunday Muse: Sunday Muse #243

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

16 thoughts on “The Sunday Muse 23 January 2023”

      1. Oh I get that, I do the same – the pen is the best therapist in the world. I have had some damn good therapists in my time, but the pen can say stuff I can’t..


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