Trauma night

Head spinning

Heart pounding

Pain beginning

Dizzy feeling

I’m an anxious mess

Panxiety is not less

Fear roots me to the spot

I’m cold, then I’m hot.

Remembering past abuse

Not wanting too.

I blink hard

I’m full of scars

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

28 thoughts on “Trauma night”

  1. Sorry to hear that you are having a rough time. I haven’t been around lately. My physical health is taking me down, down, down. I am now in an assisted facility to live. I can no longer live alone. My mental health is lots of anxiety more than my bipolar issues right now. Making the decision to let go of my freedom and get the help I need was difficult, but had to be done. I spent most of the last 2 years in and out of the hospital for physical issues this time. I am going through the blogs and unsubscribing from those that are no longer available for whatever reason. It is giving me a chance to catch up with people I haven’t spoken to in a while. Hopefully I will have more time to follow and read blogs again. Take care and hope your anxiety goes into remission.

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      1. Anxiety sucks big time and no way to completely control it. Everytime I turn around there is a new issue to deal with. My health is getting worse and worse. I now have renal failure stage 2 and an aneurysm in the left carotid artery that is too small to fix at this point so I must live with the possible threat of it bursting although they tell me that it is unlikely in my lifetime. I have to have yearly scans to make sure it isn’t growing. Take care!

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