Therapy today processing a memory

Therapy today was intense!

We started off talking about the injection we’re on for our diabetes, I was telling Eileen that the kids are super scared and really freaked out since we got told we’re going up on the dose.

No matter what I do, I cant get them to go inside when I am administering the injection.

Its like they get triggered and then they stay out or are close by when I give it.

Eileen asked me did I feel anything in my body as I was talking to her about the kids.

I did. I felt a lot of tension around my abdomen and stomach area.

She asked me if I wanted to do some EMDR, so we did. We worked with the pulsers.

She asked me to let my mind float back to my past, and just see what came up when I did that.

So I did it, and right away a memory of me being in the hospital at around body age 7 came up. I had been hospitalized as I had viral meningitis.

I remembered going to theatre to get a spinal tap done, and feeling very scared, and alone, and crying.

So we worked with the pulsers to process that memory. I’m not going to go into all of the work we did, but needless to say it was very intense, and I was so exhausted when we were done.

In the end, we figured out that the kids fear now stemmed from that memory, and how they felt so alone at the time.

Eileen kept encouraging me as the adult to support the kids, so I did.

We did an exercise where I went back into the scene with them when we were 7 years old.

That was super intense!

But I was able to help them, comfort them, be with them.

And along with Eileen’s support we were able to calm the kids right down.

She gave me some homework to do for next week. She said for me to sit on a chair with my feet on the floor, and feel into my body, my adult body, and she told me to do the butterfly hug as I bring up my adult body and feel into it.

Then she gave me the good news! She was meant to be taking next Monday off, but she said that she isn’t taking the week off now, so we’ll have therapy as usual next week. We were thrilled, we’d been preparing ourselves for having no therapy next week, but now we will so that is good.

It was definitely a very productive session.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

4 thoughts on “Therapy today processing a memory”

  1. That’s so good that you were able to get down to the root of the kids’ fear and processed that memory with Eileen. I hope the kids will be struggling less with the injections now. ANd how super cool that you will be having therapy next week, after all! 🙂

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