Cant sleep having bad anxiety and other rambles

Its 3:30 AM now. I cant sleep. I am watching tv, reading email, and trying to calm my growing anxiety.

Did I mention how much I hate anxiety? Its my worst nightmare come true!

I took my anxiety meds hours ago. But it got worse and worse as the night went on. The clonadine did nothing to fix it. I’m only on 1 MG of clonadine, think I’ll be asking Dr. Barry for an increase the next time I see her which is next week.

I’m watching a true crime documentary called the killer within, not sure I should be watching it, but I am not upset by it, I love true crime, and watch these types of documentaries regularly.

Once this is over I think I’ll watch animal cops, love that show too.

My mom came over yesterday for a couple hours. She was lecturing me about wasting food, as I had to throw out some eggs, and half a tub of butter, the expiration dates were up on them, and so I had no choice but to throw them away.

Mom helped me pack my bag for going to Dublin, she’s so good to me. I am glad I did not have to organise all that on my own, I’d probably forget half the things I wanted to bring if I had to do it all on my own.

I got hungry a little while ago, so I ate a ham sandwich and a mandarine and a peach. I hate how the hunger always strikes at night, I’ll probably just eat a banana this morning, and wait until I get on the train to have my lunch, I’m going to bring a lunch with me, some fruit and a yogurt, and a ham sandwich, and a bottle of water.

Well better stop here, catch ya’ll laters,

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “Cant sleep having bad anxiety and other rambles”

  1. We are many at this time feeling old fears and lacks returning… not to haunt us though, just to be recognised. It’s all trapped energy and needs to be welcomed home and allowed to transmute. Through the conscious breathe you can practice feeling the anxiety and allowing your loving presence to come in and love it to death, so to speak❤️ many of us now are waking up half through the night for a breather… in between dreams🥰 sending love to you x

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