Its 3:30 AM now. I cant sleep. I am watching tv, reading email, and trying to calm my growing anxiety.
Did I mention how much I hate anxiety? Its my worst nightmare come true!
I took my anxiety meds hours ago. But it got worse and worse as the night went on. The clonadine did nothing to fix it. I’m only on 1 MG of clonadine, think I’ll be asking Dr. Barry for an increase the next time I see her which is next week.
I’m watching a true crime documentary called the killer within, not sure I should be watching it, but I am not upset by it, I love true crime, and watch these types of documentaries regularly.
Once this is over I think I’ll watch animal cops, love that show too.
My mom came over yesterday for a couple hours. She was lecturing me about wasting food, as I had to throw out some eggs, and half a tub of butter, the expiration dates were up on them, and so I had no choice but to throw them away.
Mom helped me pack my bag for going to Dublin, she’s so good to me. I am glad I did not have to organise all that on my own, I’d probably forget half the things I wanted to bring if I had to do it all on my own.
I got hungry a little while ago, so I ate a ham sandwich and a mandarine and a peach. I hate how the hunger always strikes at night, I’ll probably just eat a banana this morning, and wait until I get on the train to have my lunch, I’m going to bring a lunch with me, some fruit and a yogurt, and a ham sandwich, and a bottle of water.
Well better stop here, catch ya’ll laters,