Stupified

All I want
To do is
Be put into a stupified state
sleep sweet sleep
Where are you
when I need you?

I slept for 4 hours this afternoon. But it was broken sleep. I couldnt get into a deep sleep.
I just dozed on and off. My mind kept replaying events. I kept having negative thoughts.
I was on a high earlier but then I felt really low when I lay down.
I could feel numbness setting in. I hate when the numbness takes hold. I’d rather feel something, other than be in a state of numbness.
So it was 8 Pm when I finally got out of bed, after being in bed since 4 Pm!
Now its almost 1:30 in the morning. I am back to being full of energy now. I didnt exercise tonight like I wanted to. I will do it tomorrow. Tomorrows a new day.

STUPIFY Word of the Day Challenge (wordpress.com)

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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