Guilty conscience

Today I had to be really blunt with frances, I had to say it as I saw it, call her out, which didnt please me. Why did I have to do it?
Well, after tuesdays fiasco of her taking 50 minutes when she took nitro out for a walk, because she was talking to a friend of hers, she felt really, really bad.
I had already told her not to worry about it, it was all good, I only made an issue out of it because I was worried about her, she’s diabetic, and I didnt know if she’d had a low blood sugar, and I thought she might have collapsed on the street.
But since tuesday, she’s been trying to make it up to me. And today, I had to gently but rather bluntly tell her that actually, she doesnt need to make it up to me.
She came in 15 minutes early yesterday for her shift. She bought me two bottles of lime juice at the store which I had asked her to get, on the understanding I’d give her back the cost of them, but today she wouldnt take my money, saying she wanted to give them to me to make up for what she’d done on tuesday.
I love her to pieces, but how much stuff does she think she has to do to make up for a simple mistake? I’m over it. As I told her in my firm but gentle voice, as long as you and nitro were ok, thats what matters, that is what I was most concerned about. I didnt want anything to happen to either of you. If it did, I’d be heartbroken.
I think she got the message. At least I hope she did. I didnt mean to make such a big issue out of it, so much so that now she’s feeling guilty?
That is not how I operate. I am easy going, I get along with people, and I’ve never caused issues with my PA’s before, so I’m not about to start now.

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Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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