Blind panic

I’m having a massive panic attack! OMG guys! I am shaking. I cant stop shaking. I am freaking out. I think I’m going to melt down.
I can’t pinpoint why I am panicking.
This sucks. I am so overwhelmed!
Someone talk to me! I need someone to knock some sense into me.
This anxiety is hell! I was fine up until 5 minutes ago.
I started thinking about being alone at the weekend and boom! I started panicking.
I started obsessing about what might go wrong!
I don’t know why I think something will go wrong. But I do!
OH my god, my heart is pounding out of my chest!
Think I need to go take my clonadine and haldol!
Its gonna be a looong night I think!

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

20 thoughts on “Blind panic”

  1. Hi I know I have the same at the moment and I cant sleep either. I am going to drink a hot chocolate perhaps this will help me. Or I will think about a nice place somewhere. I think of you Take care.

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  2. Oh Carol Anne, ok first off, breathe. When I have a weekend to myself with no plans, I often panic too. Do you like listening to music? Put some music on now that will lift your mood. Do you know any funny podcasts? Adam Buxton’s podcast where he talks to “interesting” people is meant to be good. That sort of thing can be a good distraction. Or if you don’t feel like it now, maybe schedule it in for the weekend. Hope you feel better soon xxx

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      1. When I’m in a panic, relaxation music often just irritates me so it has to be something like disco or angsty rock! Have fun going down the podcast wormhole. I only discovered podcasts last year and found a few I liked xxx

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