Therapy-the kids fears

So today in therapy we talked about fear, more specifically the fear that the kids have about going out. Since the start of the pandemic we’ve been mostly at home. We’ve only gone out occasionally, and when we have gone out its mostly just been to our parents house.
Now that we’re fully vaccinated, we can go out and about again.
I was telling eileen we have a lot of anxiety around going out, especially the younger alters. Having to wear masks still isnt helping, its actually sending our anxiety skyrocketing.
Last week, we’d planned on going to starbux on Friday morning, before going grocery shopping, Frances who is our PA was gonna take us.
On Thursday morning, when frances was making out our grocery list, I chickened out, and I told Frances to go on her own.
Eileen encouraged us this morning to try to go this week, so, the plan this week is to get ready and leave our house, and go to starbux and have a coffee, before going in to the grocery store to do our grocery shopping.
Its a massive thing for us, and we’re terrified, but we’re going to try to do it.
Right now in ireland, you can’t sit in a restraunt so we’ll have to drink our coffee outdoors, but that is fine with me, as it means I won’t be around crowds of people.
Being around crowds really triggers the anxiety.
If we can do this it will be a huge step forward.
Eileen said just try this for this week, go slow, we’ll build up slowly to where we can go places again and meet friends, and socialise like we used to do.
The hour long session flew by today. We used the pulsers and did some EMDR work around stabilisation and bringing our adult selves back to basics, we are supporting the kids, and eileen is supporting them too.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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