No more ordering food

I have to stop ordering food. I am not being healthy.
That needs to change.
I am gonna put a stop to ordering food for a while.
I ordered food 3 times this week. I know I shouldnt, it isnt good for me.
Emily is also saying now that we should only eat once a day.
I know she’s very focused on food right now, and so I need to ensure her eating habits and ED behaviours don’t go unchecked.
She still wants to restrict, and she still only wants to eat certain foods.
Right now I am feeling very guilty. First I ordered a burrito, then I ordered a milk shake, and now I am feeling so bad for ordering all that food.
I didnt need to do it. We had food in our refridgerator.
Its not only Emily who has the ED behaviours either.
Eve whose 10 also has them.
And I just feel gross and fat and I am feeling ashamed and guilty for pigging out on all that food.
Ug sigh. Nothing I can do now.
I just feel like we cant eat now for the rest of the evening.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “No more ordering food”

  1. It’s so hard to keep eating habits healthy when there is so much tempting offers around. Ordering food isn’t a bad thing if you can 🤗keep it as a rare treat. Do you do some cooking for yourself or do you always need help with it? 😊

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      1. Ah, ok. That’s good that you can do some things. Do you enjoy cooking or is it rather a chore? I love cooking. It’s rather creative and making our own food keeps us in power of what goes into our body. I like that. Even though I do have times when I am so exhausted I hate cooking. But I have some handy recipes that go fast which I can do in those situations. Like pasta and sauce or cheese and potatoe pie and salad. We also often batch cook and put half in the freezer which makes it easier when I don’t want to cook 🤗

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