Rapidly going downhill

We are rapidly deterioriating. This has been a really bad day. Our mental health is just not great at all.
My mom came over and my sister, that was nice, it was nice to see them. However I was very off, I couldnt really enjoy their company, I was a bit all over the place, my head is not in a good space mentally at the moment.
My anxiety is very strong, and I am feeling very triggered. I am unable to say why, though. All I know is, I am anxious and feeling very overwhelmed, but, it wouldnt take much to push me over the edge now.
I just feel so alone, and like no one can help me.
Its such a desperate awful feeling.
I just want to go to bed and hide and sleep for as long as I can. I wont, because I’m trying to sleep at regular hours, and not nap in the day time.
Life is just hard right now! I’m so over this awfulness.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

12 thoughts on “Rapidly going downhill”

    1. I think so but I really don’t want to go in, I’ll avoid it at all costs I’m getting as much support as I can at the moment to stop me from having to be hospitalised because Doctor Barry said due to Corvid it’s a whole different ball game now going into hospital there is no visitors allowed you can’t get the passes you have to stay in isolation stuff like that so she’s trying to avoid at all costs

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