Not ok but I’m safe

I’m really not ok. My day hasnt been bad, as such. My mood is just very low, and I’ve got so much anxiety. My heart feels like its going to burst out of my chest, literally.
I’m shaking and sweating. I’m trying to steady my breathing. Trying to do the deep breathing exercises eileen taught me. We do this thing, its called voo breathing, usually it soothes me when I do it. I am trying it now.
I ate some pizza for dinner and now Emilys gone crazy. But she hasnt purged, thank god. She just didnt want to eat that pizza.
The weather is miserable again which isnt helping my mood. All the gloom of rain and the darkness of the evening isnt helping.
I think I’ll go curl up with my book. I might feel better in a little while. Reading always helps me.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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