Saw Dr. Barry…I almost got hospitalised

I just got back home from seeing Dr. Barry. It was a very intense appointment, she almost hospitalised us, but I managed to convince her not to.
The long and short of it is Emilys really not well. She’s stockpiling meds, as well as purging food, and only eating certain foods.
Dr. Barry is very concerned about her. In fact she’s very concerned about us all.
She knows with our level of ongoing dissociation that its really hard to keep a close eye on Emily and with the dissociation being so bad right now, our meds arent being taken properly.
She agreed to let me stay out of hospital and see if I can do something with our meds, she kept encouraging emily and telling her how important our meds were to us.
She said she’ll see how it goes over the next two weeks, and she’ll have Sarah check in more with us. But there is no guarantee we wont end up inpatient.
We still might end up in hospital in the end.
Especially with our eating being so off the charts as well. Thats a real worry.
I am so glad we didnt have to go in to hospital for now at least. I am really going to try hard to ensure our meds are taken correctly. I am also going to text Eileen and let her know what is happening and what Dr. barry was planning on doing.
Again I feel super anxious now. I think it is all the talking we did at the appointment. It was very draining.
Dr. Barry was very kind and understanding. She said we’ll get through this, and that we don’t give ourselves enough credit, that we are much better at managing stress now than we used to be a few years ago.
She was giving us the example of that kids illustrated book about going on a bear hunt, and she said
“You cant go over it, you cant go under it, you’ve got to go through it”
“And you will”, She said.
You are strong and you can do this.
“And I am right there with you, every step of the way”!
I love her. She also said she knows I wouldnt want to go to hospital, if it was my choice, so she said she’s taking that into consideration in not admitting us.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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