Sometimes…

sometimes i wonder
what life would be like
if depression didnt fill my days
if fear didnt fill my nights
if i didnt fear the darkness
if i could breathe without my breath catching in my throat
sometimes i wonder
what life would be like
if memories didnt threaten to engulf me
at every turn
and I wonder
What life would be like
If my nights werent filled
with vivid nightmares
if sleep came easily to me
it doesnt, though
and I am left wondering
Will I ever know
What these things feel like?
Will my days ever be filled
With sunshine, brightness, laughter
All day, every day
Will the bad times leave?
when will they finally leave me?

In response to the word of the day post…todays word is sometimes.
SOMETIMES Word of the Day Challenge (wordpress.com)

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland. View all posts by Carol anne