GOD! GUYS I AM CRAWLING OUT OF MY SKIN! I AM SO ANXIOUS. I CANT FUCKING SLEEP EITHER! GOD THIS BLOODY SUCKS! I AM SO OVER THIS ANXIETY. THE ANXIETY MONSTER JUST KEEPS STRIKING AND THERE IS NO FUCKING LET UP!
AND I HAVE THERAPY IN THE MORNING, IN ABOUT 8 HOURS, , AND I DONT WANNA TALK TO EILEEN! I AM NOT IN THE MOOD FOR TALKING ABOUT MY SHIT! SOMEONE NEEDS TO GIVE US A FREAKIN BREAK!
HAVING DID IS NO PICNIC! HAVING CONSTANT ANXIETY AND LOW MOOD IS A ROYAL PAIN!
WHEN IS IT GOING TO END?
EILEEN IS GOING TO ASK ME TO TALK TO HER, TELL HER WHATS BOTHERING ME, I WOULD, IF MY WORDS WOULD COME OUT IN SOME SORTA COHERENT FASHION, BUT ALL I GOT IS A BRAIN FULL OF TURMOIL, A HEART THAT FREAKIN HURTS, A CHEST THATS TIGHT, A STOMACH THAT CLENCHES AT THE VERY THOUGHT OF TRYING TO TELL MY THERAPIST WHY I FEEL SO BAD!
I WANNA CUT SO BAD RIGHT NOW GUYS!
I REALLY WOULD LOVE TO TAKE A BLADE TO MY SKIN AND CUT THE WHOLE LOT OFF!
I WONT, DONT WORRY, I AM SAFE. I JUST AM HAVING STRONG URGES!
ITS DOUBTFUL SLEEP IS GONNA COME, AS MY FRIEND MORGUE SAYS, ITS BACK TO FORT BLANKY, TO TRY TO SETTLE DOWN AND WHEN I MAKE A CUP OF TEA, I’LL TRY TO READ FOR A WHILE TO SEE IF THAT’LL DISTRACT US.
WISH ME LUCK GUYS! AND IF YOUR OUT THERE, I COULD USE A FRIEND!
LIZ WHOSE FEELING VERY PISSY RIGHT NOW!
Sorry you’re having a really bad night. Is there calming music you like that might be nice to listen to? Hugs, R
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I listen to the radio. I enjoy listening to talk shows. xo
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Ah sorry about this :((
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thank you ❤ xoxo
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Sorry for being late to the party. Hell, anxiety sucks but lady you are an inspiration of getting through it despite urges and pain. I hope you got a little sleep and you can find the words for Eileen. I know you don’t want to talk but I bet you know it works and she seems to be an amazing lady. Hang in there. The candle is lit for all of you daily 🤗🙋♀️🐝
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Yes, I found my words, I always do, Eileen is Grace she helps me and she is brilliant, one in 1 million
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Oh, I am so glad for you 🤗🙋♀️🐝
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thanks, Bee! xoxo
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