WORKING WITH MY ANGER IN THERAPY

TODAY THERAPY WAS TOUGH. I WAS REALLY NOT FEELING GOOD. I WAS SUPER ANGRY. EILEEN ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO WORK WITH IT SO I SAID I’D TRY. WE DID VOO BREATHING. ITS A LITTLE WEIRD, BUT I DID IT ANYWAY. WHAT YOU DO IS TAKE A BREATH IN AND THEN BREATHE OUT BY DOING A VOO SOUND, IT RELEASES THE ANGER, IT DID HELP, IT CALMED ME. I WAS SUPER ANGRY AT OUR ABUSERS, AND ALSO AT OUR DAD. ALSO, EILEEN HAD ME GET A TOWEL, AND SHE HAD ME PRETEND I WAS SQUEEZING IT OUT AS IF IT WAS FULL OF WATER AND I WAS RINGING IT OUT. JUST LETTING MY ANGER DRAIN FROM MY HANDS INTO THE TOWEL FELT GOOD. IT WAS HARD TO FIND WORDS TODAY, BUT I DID MANAGE TO GET A LOT OFF MY CHEST. I TOLD EILEEN I FELT VULNERABLE AND I WAS SCARED TO TALK TO HER AND SHOW MY VULNERABILITY. SHE WAS BRILLIANT, AND SHE TOTALLY GOT HOW I WAS FEELING. SHE ALSO TOLD ME SOME OF THE THINGS THAT SHE DOES WHEN SHE’S ANGRY, LIKE GOING FOR A BRISK WALK, OR DOING HOUSEWORK, OR GOING ON HER TREADMILL. SHE SAID I DID GREAT, AND ITS PERFECTLY OK FOR ME TO BE ANGRY, THAT MY ANGER IS WELCOME. IT FELT EMPOWERING. I FELT GOOD AFTER WE FINISHED THE SESSION. WE DID TALK ABOUT ME SEEING DR. BARRY. I FELT LIKE I DIDNT WANT TO LET HER IN. NOT SURE WHAT THAT WAS ABOUT, BUT I THINK ITS BECAUSE I AM FEELING VERY VULNERABLE, AND I AM AFRAID OF WHAT DR. BARRY WILL THINK OF ME. I WILL TALK TO HER THOUGH WHEN SHE CALLS. WE WERE MEANT TO SEE HER FACE TO FACE THIS MORNING, BUT I DECIDED TO OPT FOR A PHONE APPOINTMENT INSTEAD, SO I AM NOW WAITING FOR HER TO CALL ME. I WILL TELL HER ABOUT THE WORK I DID TODAY IN THERAPY WITH MY ANGER. I’M SURE SHE’LL BE IMPRESSED. ANGER IS SUCH A HARD FEELING TO DEAL WITH. I DID TELL EILEEN THAT I FELT LIKE SELF HARMING LAST NIGHT, SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS GLAD THAT I DIDNT DO IT. I AM GLAD NOW TOO.
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[Tags Anger, Therapy, ptsd, trauma, mental illness,
psychotherapy, psychiatrist, doctor, healing, anxiety, crisis, overwhelm,
emotions, voo breathing, parts, dissociation, dissociative identity
disorder]

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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