The struggle is ongoing

I am sitting here on the couch in tears. My anxiety is through the roof!
I now know why this is. Yesterday was the start of spring. It was spring equanox.
I am a survivor of ritual abuse, and this particular date is not a good date for me.
So its no wonder I’ve been so anxious!
I am so emotional tonight! Eileen emailed me about an hour ago, she was sending the link to our zoom session for tomorrow. When I saw her name pop into my inbox I instantly felt soothed.
Just reading her kind words helped me to feel calm, but it also made me cry. I was a blubbering mess for about 15 minutes.
Now I am a hot mess again!
My silver lining is that I get to see not just eileen tomorrow, I also get to see Dr. Barry!
I have therapy with eileen at 10 AM and then I will see Dr. Barry at 12:30! I am so grateful. I badly need to see both of them.
Maybe between the 3 of us we can figure out some stuff and figure out what to do to get me back on track.
Fingers crossed!

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

12 thoughts on “The struggle is ongoing”

  1. it helps a great deal too 5Cry have a Runny Snotty Nose ,IT HELPS ME SO MUCH ..i was Abused very sexually as a child .people never see the every day effects . if you like a chat.i am here ,MARK

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