Yvonne, one of the nurses from the weekend team called me this morning. I knew her, as she was a nurse on the ward when I was an inpatient.
She’s really nice. I like when I know the nurses as its easy then to talk to them.
We talked about sleep and anxious feelings and meds. And my plan for today. I dont really have a plan, but I just told her about being at my parents, and how mom was going to come back to my house with me later on this afternoon, and then, once mom leaves I am going to face time my friend sarah, and read.
I did sleep a bit better this weekend, which was nice. I badly needed it. I think I will try to look at my sleep this week in therapy. I need to try to look at why insiders are afraid to sleep. I know some are. The thing is though, they dont give up info easily, they get super scared to tell why they are afraid.
Even now, 8 years on and they all trust eileen they still are so afraid to talk to her sometimes.
I suppose I’ll be going back to no sleep again tonight, I checked my stats on my fitbit, and it said I got 13 hours of good restful sleep this weekend, so I guess thats good.
Right now I feel a bit scattered, and I am super anxious.
Not sure why the anxietys there, but its pretty bad.
