I called my CPn Sarah

I just called my CPn sarah, and I told her about what is happening to me, about the voices I am hearing.

She asked a couple of questions, mainly what are the voices saying, when did they start, etc.

I answered her questions, and I told her I got desperate last night so I took a fenergan and an extra haldol.

She said she’d phone Dr. Barry and ask her if she can prescribe something today for me to take tonight to try to combat the voices. Even though I am going to be talking to Dr. Barry tomorrow, she didnt want to leave me without anything tonight.

It might turn out that Dr. Barry will say I should wait, or she may prescribe something to tide me over until tomorrow. Sarah said she’ll try to get hold of dr. barry before lunch time, but she’s on a ward round this morning, in the hospital.

I’m sure sarah will be able to get through to her, but it just may take a little longer than normal. These voices are definitely external, it feels as though someones in the room with me, commanding me to do things, and saying a bunch of negative things about me.

Its very very scary. Sarah asked me if I have any intention on acting on what the voices are telling me to do. My answer was no, for now at least. I do not feel suicidal or like I will harm myself.

I am just super triggered and super scared. It feels awful. I feel really horrible.

I hope Dr. Barry will have some advice, and that she’ll be able to do something for me. I don’t wanna end up in the hospital. I have a feeling I may be headed there if I dont get this under control.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “I called my CPn Sarah”

  1. I pray you come through this recent set back quickly, you are not alone, keep writing and sharing your thoughts, as although you’re scared right now, you are helping so many others, they probably haven’t liked or followed you but they are there in the background possibly to scared to come forward themselves but hopefully they have realised they are not the only one in this big wide world, you are one of the most remarkable people I have seen on here, hang on in there hunny your amazing x

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