Starting to really struggle

Things have been going so well for me. But now, its coming to an end. I am really starting to struggle. I’ve been trying to fight it all day. But there is no fighting it. My head is in a weird place. I am hallucinating and feeling things on my skin. I am starting to get super anxious. I have no PRN meds to take. I will have to wait until tonight to get my 10 MG of haldol. I hope I can hang on. Right now I feel so overwhelmed. I feel as if something terrible is going to happen to me. Its irrational I know, and I will probably be ok, but still, my thought process is all screwy.
I even took a nap, that didnt help. I couldnt rest properly…my mind was too messed up.
This totally blows! I wish to be normal, whatever the hell normal is.
Is anyone around? Can use some support.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

18 thoughts on “Starting to really struggle”

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