I’m really struggling tonight

My CPN Sarah called me today. We chatted about the week, and I told her I am struggling big time. I told her I’d had the weekend team last weekend, for extra support. She didnt know, as she’d been off work last week.

She asked me if I’d like to be referred to the weekend team again this weekend for phone support. I said I would like that. So she’s gonna refer me in and they’ll phone me on both saturday and Sunday.

I wont be going to my parents this weekend. Mom wanted me to come over, but I dont want to because my dad stresses me out too much. I’d prefer to stay home, even though its hard at the moment being alone, and being in lockdown and barely seeing anyone. At least I’ll have peace and quiet at home, and less stress.

I’m struggling right now to cope. I’m very anxious, I’ve a massive ball of anxiety in my stomach, breathing is difficult, but I am trying to breathe deeply, although I find that very difficult, due to having asthma, and also due to not being able to take very deep breaths.

Sarah said, that if the weekend team phones me, and I think I need to be seen for a review, that I can tell whoever phones me that I’d like to be seen, and they’ll arrange that for me. Its good to know that that option is there, should I need it.

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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