Feeling introspective

I am feeling introspective tonight. I am thinking a lot about my therapy. About whether the funding for it will be approved. I mean, it should be. Eileen thinks it will be. She has told me that there is nothing to worry about, yet I still worry. I need Eileen, I couldnt survive right now without her, in time maybe, but not right now. My stability depends on my going to therapy. I need that outlet. I need that attachment.
If for some reason my funding for ongoing therapy isnt approved, I am going to have to figure something else out and make sure I can still go to therapy. Even if that means I have to struggle to pay for it. If I have to, I will.
Its a lot to be facing, and a lot to have to contemplate.
I know me and Eileen need to have a few more conversations around all of this. Around options, and what we’ll do if the funding doesnt get approved.
Even Remy who assessed me told me to speak with Eileen about alternative options, just in case.
I hope it wont come to that though.

http://fivedotoh.com/2020/09/17/fowc-with-fandango-introspective/

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

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