Alter post…from taylor age six

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its me taylor
today in therapy i toked wif eileen
we toked bout me hearin voices
cuz wen im not doin gud i do hear them
eileen ask me if it a voice i recognise
i said yes its my abusers voice
she said sometimes that happens
i telled her sometimes i feel lik there are bugs on my arms
crawling on me
it awful feeling to feel it
and i hear the voice tellin me things
like that my food is poison
or that im a horrible person
or that there are big spiders
or that someones coming in my house in the windows
eileen said im not crazy
she said theres nothing rong with me
i did cry a lot
cuz i feel so crazy
and i feel so sad
and the oother kids sometimes say im actin weird
and it feels like im a freak
and i hate it
i wanted a hug from eileen
but she couldnt hug me
cuz of stupid covid19
why it called covid19 anyway
some peoples calls it coronavirus
and then some calls it covid19
make you mind up people
i think the virus is stupid
real stupid
why doesnt it go now
cuz i jus wanna be able to hug my therapist
love
taylor i six

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

4 thoughts on “Alter post…from taylor age six”

  1. Hi, there, Taylor! I’m glad you got to talk to eileen. I know what you mean about wanting to hug people. I have friends that I can’t hug either. the Coronavirus is the name for a bunch of different viruses and Covid 19 is the name they gave to this coronavirus that is making people sick. the common cold is also a corona virus and it has another name as well. xxx

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