I struggled a lot today

I really struggled a lot today. The day was hard for me.

My parents came over for a while so that was a bit of a distraction. They brought me Sunday dinner.

But then when they left, I just slept. I couldnt function.

The anxiety was so high and I felt so triggered. I felt really bad. Like everything was so overwhelming.

I still havent recieved my new computer. I am hoping it might come this morning.

If it does I am going to head to my parents for a few days. Probably for the rest of this week. My PA Frances is on vacation, so I dont have any help at home this week as the agency couldnt find cover for me.

So I think going to my parents will be the best thing to do, but I cant go until the damn computer comes. Please guys pray it will come today!

I need to go to my parents and be around other people!

I will also be seeing Eileen tomorrow. So actually now that I think of it I might stay at home until then. Just because I’d rather do therapy at home, where its less busy.

Hoping we will be going back to face to face therapy really soon!

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Author: Carol anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

19 thoughts on “I struggled a lot today”

  1. Fingers crossed and sending big hugs. I hate these moments with the anxiety and it’s hard to focus when those times hit. Much love to you and remember that they don’t last. Better times are just around the corner. 😉♥️

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  2. I am so glad you have your parents to do to Carol Anne. I hate this tough times… thinking of you and sending love.. I have had some very low moments since Saturday as my sister is back in hospital but I make sure I get out and around others as that does help but its not the same as having family.. Big hug.. hope things feel calmer and safer soon.. .<3

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    1. I’m sorry to hear she is back in the hospital again, so sad, thinking of you and sending you big hugs, I’m really glad you’re getting out and about but you’re right, family is awesome and I’m so glad I have mine I wish you had more family around you 🤍🤗

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      1. my nephews are up north so I hope to visit them soon.. the good thing to come out of this is that her son called me for the very first time to tell me and was open and vulnerable.. that was a huge thing, CA… love to you hunny hope you enjoy your day…

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