My anxiety is spiking

Tomorrow is a hard date for us. My anxiety is ramped way up at the moment. I am trying to stay busy. I know I will struggle tomorrow a lot so I am doing whatI can to stop the anxiety in its tracks.

Its a ritual date tomorrow, so lots of memories of abuse coming up. Trying our best to dampen down the flashbacks. But tonight is going to be hard, just got to keep using my tools, and doing self care things to cope.

Would appreciate any support or words of wisdom.


Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

41 thoughts on “My anxiety is spiking”

  1. Hi there. Gosh, I totally understand what you are going through. I actually just wrote a blog post about mental health awareness. It is so silly that people are not open about things. Please take care of yourself, friend. Self care!! Have a hot relaxing bath, listen to some music. Try to get your mind of things. I have PTSD as well. Anniversaries of trauma are the worse.

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      1. Yes, we all have our own coping mechanisms too. I will be interviewing people suffering with depression, anxiety and a range of other disorders as well. Feel free to take a look. It is nice to hear other people’s experiences and also get some ideas on how they cope.


  2. Dear Carol Anne, dates that bring hurtful memories are so difficult. I’m sending peace and strength your way. I discovered something today as I was gardening. A bad memory came up and I felt sad. Then in my imagination I changed what the adult did to something nurturing instead. I don’t know if that would help, but what if you create your own ending? Hugs, R

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    1. Hi Rebecca. Yes, Iโ€™ve tried that before in therapy and it has worked creating my own ending I mean so maybe I will try that today is bad memories come up, thanks for the suggestion I really appreciate it ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ˜™๐Ÿ˜

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  3. Hi it’s just me. Heather. Could you maybe start a new project? like making your Christmas list of people to buy for, or making a budget to buy something big or that you’ve been really wanting? Plan how you can put aside a small amount from each of your checks to pay for it over the next few months? Plan something new that would really make a change and is something to look forward to…something that needs a lot of planning? Could you start a group or service where you help folks who need tech help because of their age? You seem to be better at tech stuff than a lot of people I know. Even a small amount of encouragement can help folks not feel so overwhelmed. I think you are good at that. Taking control of something helps you up your personal power I think.

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    1. Hi Heather, your suggestions are really good, thank you for them. I think I will start a new group tech related. Iโ€™m also ripping all of my DVDs to the computer at the moment so that I can get rid of the DVDs but keep a copy of the movies. So thatโ€™s keeping me busy ๐Ÿ˜™๐Ÿ’ž


  4. Without knowing what happened, my advice would be as a stranger is, please don’t give the date as much importance, don’t ramp it up, don’t count down the days.

    Life is all about how we look at things. For example, I got assaulted and stabbed twice in the head. Five times in the leg in 2014 and left with the scars, one above my left eye. I gave no importance to the day it happened, and as a result, over the years, I don’t think about it much.

    When people meet me they are sad for me that I have a scar on my face, I can see the tears in their eyes, without saying anything I can hear their thoughts, “how is this man happy with a scar on his face.

    I could say to myself that its X number of days away from the date that happened, but I choose to thank God for every single day I wake up that he didn’t take my life.

    Wishing you the best and hope this helps.

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