From Emily: and its not aboutt the food…

hihihii
im so glad eileens gonna be back to work soon. it was so stressful when she was out sick. i felt stressed all of the time.
today we talked a little bit about my eating and how i am using food to control things. she kept telling me its not about the food, there is more to it than that…i know there is. and she’s right. it is not all about the food. its hard to see it sometimes though. i feel like if i can just use food to control things i’ll be ok. but i want to learn new ways of coping.
eileen said she’s looking forward to working with me again. she says we’ll deal with the underlying stuff and she said the food issues we have are life long, and we’ve survived much worse, that we can do this and survive these issues also.
she said her saying that she always says to us, there is no emergency, there’s no 9 9 9.
she always says that when she’s telling me not to worry that things are going to be dealt with that she’s on it.
its such a relief to have her back, i felt so sad when we werent able to see her. its going to be so good to go to therapy again. we need it, I need it.
butterfly hugs,
Loves you,
Emily
๐Ÿ˜Šโœจ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “From Emily: and its not aboutt the food…”

  1. That is so great em! I hope you get to see her really soon. Yay that eileen is feeling better. It’s great that you are aware that controlling stuff is such a big part of life–I think it’s a big issue for almost everyone, the degree to which we can control things or can’t control them, and how much we try to do so. hugs and love and best wishes
    Donnalee

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