im so glad eileens gonna be back to work soon. it was so stressful when she was out sick. i felt stressed all of the time.
today we talked a little bit about my eating and how i am using food to control things. she kept telling me its not about the food, there is more to it than that…i know there is. and she’s right. it is not all about the food. its hard to see it sometimes though. i feel like if i can just use food to control things i’ll be ok. but i want to learn new ways of coping.
eileen said she’s looking forward to working with me again. she says we’ll deal with the underlying stuff and she said the food issues we have are life long, and we’ve survived much worse, that we can do this and survive these issues also.
she said her saying that she always says to us, there is no emergency, there’s no 9 9 9.
she always says that when she’s telling me not to worry that things are going to be dealt with that she’s on it.
its such a relief to have her back, i felt so sad when we werent able to see her. its going to be so good to go to therapy again. we need it, I need it.