Tomorrow I have to go to the colcoscopy clinic, I have to see the consultant. The nurse I spoke to on the phone said I wouldnt be having the colcoscopy tomorrow, she said it was just a chat. But I am not holy convinced that the consultant won’t wanna do something, I was thinking if she does, it might be an internal examination, or a scan, or maybe another smear test. I really dont know though what she’ll do. I am super nervous about going. My mom is going with me so thats good, at least I’ll have her support. I have to be there for 9:45 in the morning. I hadnt been thinking much about the appointment, but now that its tomorrow I’ve really started freaking out. The plan is, for me and Liz to be out during it. I’ve asked Jade to keep the kids inside and to make sure they dont suddenly come out, especially if we do have to have an examination or a scan done. She is able to reassure the kids and keep them all safe. I am so thankful that we have her inside. If you can send me positive vibes, or prayers, or a hug, I’d truly appreciate it. I just have to try to be strong and get through this. I’m absolutely terrified. I was going to tell the doctor that I am nervous about the appointment, but now I’m thinking maybe I shouldnt say anything about it. Am not really sure what to do. I probably will barely sleep tonight thinking about it all. I hope I do sleep as otherwise I’ll be exhausted going there tomorrow morning.