Well, Em had a bad night. She was struggling a lot tonight. She finally got some sleep and she is now sleeping. But I am wide awake. I am worried about her. She has been so depressed lately. Its such a worry. We that is myself and liz, and jade, have been trying to help her best as we can. The thing is though, she doesnt want to talk to us. She keeps everything to herself. Jade lives with her, in the area inside where Emily lives, and she has said she’ll keep an eye on her. I worry when she is so suicidal. She can be quite impulsive. And she has an ability to block the rest of us from knowing what she’s doing, and she can block us from having control of the body, if she wants to as well, I need to try to keep focused, and keeping a close eye on whose out, what they are doing when they are out etc. I’ve told emily she isnt to come out if she feels suicidal, unless myself or Liz or Jade are close by to watch her. She has agreed to this. I’ve taken all of our meds, and hid them. The last thing I want is for her to get hold of our meds and take the whole lot, which is something that could easily happen when she gets the urge to die and because she is so impulsive at times. Her depression debilitates her. You can tell, just from looking at her that she’s not ok. Did you ever walk into a room with someone whose depressed and the energy in the room feels awful? The air is heavy, the atmosphere is heavy? That is how it is here when Emilys out. She says she feels flat, and she has no energy to care. thats the worry, when she has no energy to care. i’ve told her she can write to people, on our email list, and on our blog over the next few days for support and she said she would do that. she’ll also talk to eileen on monday I hope. I’ve emailed eileen to fill her in on the situation. Just one more day to get through before we see eileen. Thank god.
Good morning.
It’s really great that you are taking action to help Emily. Many years ago when I was in counseling dealing with my abuse, my counselor had us sign contracts basically doing what you did with Emily by getting her to agree not to come out/forward unless certain others were nearby to protect her. I found that I had to actually put the agreement in writing and those involved had to sign the contract. The act of physically signing the contract made it really powerful in my mind. I know, it probably sounds absurd but it worked in my situation.
Sending big, fluffy, marshmallow hugs your way!
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Thank you for the hugs A contract in writing sounds good, I might ask our therapist about that
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I thought you might think I was crazy for that but it really was powerful. It somehow made me feel more accountable for my choices. Maybe your therapist will be okay with it. If you end up trying it out I hope it might be as powerful for you and Emily.
Take care. My mom has finally settled down so I am going to try and sleep. I have an endless supply of hugs so I’m sending more! Take care.
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I hope you can sleep. Thank you so much for all of the hugs they are very much appreciated. XXX
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(((Hugs))) to Emily and also to you, Liz and Jade. We are so sorry Emily is struggling so bad. Our Rachelle, who also struggles with similar issues and is also 12, is willing to talk to her anytime. Sending positive vibes.
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Okay, will let her know, thanks 💗💗
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I’m glad you have Eileen to provide such wonderful support.
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Me too, so glad she’s here and able to support us 🥰
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Stay blessed. Hope it all works out.
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Thank you, and I hope so too 😇
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It surely will. Take care
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Thanks, shan ❤ ❤
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My pleasure
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