Emotional overwhelm

I am feeling so emotional. I am sitting here with my coffee, and I am crying. I hate life sometimes. I really do.
I got a flashback and it freaked me out. It sent me reeling.
Memories fucking suck so much. I hate them. I want to go numb. I want to disappear. I want this pain to end.
Why? Why do I suffer so much trauma?
I feel so dead. So much pain in my heart and in my head.

Author: Carol anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

20 thoughts on “Emotional overwhelm”

  1. It is difficult when we not only remember painful memories but relive them in the moment โค Remembering times that should have not happened, which makes the pain amplify. Unfortunately with life comes pain, with pain shows we are alive. In these moments as hard as it is we need to do our best to remember we have a heart that is lovable, a voice that is worth hearing and life to live the best we can ๐Ÿ™‚ We are each important. You are stronger than you think. Your words reached my heart. Sending you so much love and hugs dear โค x x

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  2. All have such situations like this once in a while…. Just go through it…. Figure out something to help yourself out from the trauma…. May be music or movies or anything you like the most…..

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  3. I can understand that painful memories of past keep haunting us.
    But my dear, life is about moving on, living in present and planning for future. Believe in KARMA and be strong and positive. I know it is easier said than done, but this is how life goes on. Your life is a gift from GOD. Plz don’t waste it dwelling in the painful past. You are a strong woman๐ŸŒธ

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  4. I can understand that painful memories of past keep haunting us. But my dear, life is about moving on, living in present and planning for future. Believe in KARMA. Your life is a gift from GOD. Don’t waste it dwelling in the painful past. I know, it is easier said than done, but you need to be strong and positive always. Find your little ways to calm your mind. You are a strong woman๐ŸŒธ

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