AH DAMNIT, FUCKING INSOMNIA AGAIN!

ITS ALMOST 10:30 AND I WISH I COULD SLEEP. BEEN UP SINCE 7 THIS MORNING, YOUD THINK I’D BE SLEEPING OR HEADING THAT WAY BY NOW. NO SUCH LUCK. INSTEAD I AM SITTING HERE TEARING MY HAIR OUT AND DRINKING TEA, AND BEFORE ANYONE RIPS INTO ME ABOUT CAFFEINE, I HAVE TO DRINK IT. IT CALMS ME. AT LEAST ITS NOT COFFEE RIGHT? IS THERE MORE CAFFEINE IN COFFEE THAN IN TEA? I DUNNO. FUCK IT I SAY. I NEED A BREAK FROM MY RACING THOUGHTS. I’M JEALOUS OF NITRO, HE’S SNORING SOUNDLY AT MY FEET. IT REALLY IS A DOGS LIFE. ANXIETYS A FUCKING BITCH. MINE IS REALLY HIGH TONIGHT. THIS TIME OF YEAR REALLY SUCKS FOR US. THE MONTH LEADING UP TO OUR BIRTHDAY AND EASTER IS ALWAYS HARD. SO MANY MEMORIES COMING UP FROM THE PAST. SO MANY TRIGGERS. ITS HORRIBLE. I HATE IT. NO WONDER I CANT SLEEP…TOO MUCH SHIT ON MY MIND. WELL, SINCE IM NOT SLEEPING, I HAVE TIME TO READ ALL THE AWESOME BLOGS I FOLLOW. LOVING ALL OF YA AWESOME PEOPLE! YOUR ALL SO SUPPORTIVE, AND I AM SO APPRECIATIVE. WHO ELSE FINDS IT HARD LATELY TO SLEEP? ANYONE? THERE’S GOTTA BE SOMEONE? I CANT DO THIS ALONE.
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Author: Carol anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

18 thoughts on “AH DAMNIT, FUCKING INSOMNIA AGAIN!”

  1. I’ve been having insomnia a lot lately. Last night, fortunately, I did get to sleep. I’ve been taking Benadryl on top of the Remeron my Nurse Practitioner prescribed for sleep. Some nights it works, others it doesn’t. I drink Cokes myself, even when I can’t sleep. I manage to cut down, but not out on them.

    We just went out to get gas and Cokes, the streets aren’t deserted here like in some cities, but traffic did seem lighter than I’d expect on a Saturday afternoon.

    I haven’t heard from my sister in Texas for a long time, I just sent her an email asking how things are going there and told her what was happening here. I’m not sure what her opinion on the coronavirus situation will be.

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      1. Sort of insomnia news: I got to sleep last night pretty fast, but I woke up early and couldn’t get back to sleep. I was so looking forward to sleeping late. I got enough sleep though.

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      2. We actually ended up getting a good amount of sleep too, which was nice. It is doubtful we’ll get much sleep tonight though, always its only 1 or 2 nights of good sleep we will get before we’re back to 1 or 2 hours max.

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  2. You know insomnia and I are very close frenemies these day. There has been a live chat room featured added to the community so hopefully if people will pop in, there will alway be either me or Imp there to talk to you when you can’t sleep and just need to vent or not be entirely alone. ❤ Maybe we can bore the insomnia out of ya 😉

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