This fucking anxiety sucks!

Feeling so bad right now guys. Just so sad. Have been crying for the last hour. Flashbacks are so awful. I hate them. They feel so overwhelming. I feel like I am being sucked into a vortex. Its horrible. I wish I didnt have to experience them. I wish It wasnt gone midnight, I’d be able to contact my therapist if it was earlier. I cant now though its too late. Tomorrow maybe. I just have to get through tonight. I hope I can. The anxiety is back, I am super anxious right now. I feel agitated, and on edge. Like I am crawling out of my skin. This sucks.

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

32 thoughts on “This fucking anxiety sucks!”

      1. I have a lot of food allergies I’ve found out about two years ago. If I eat gluten, sugar or drink alcohol it really throws my body and mind for a loop. I get upset and anxious. Hope you are lucky and don’t have similar allergies.

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  1. I had a tough evening similarly. I had a family dinner and couldn’t even see myself getting through it one step at a time but it’s over. Crawling back into a bit of solitude to calm myself.

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  2. I can completely understand how u must be feeling.i have unpleasant memories that sometimes attack.me at night and I get panic attacks.I consciously literary force myself to listen to loud music with earphones or listen to some very interesting video to drown my thoughts and force myself to stop thinking.
    It’s great u have a great therapist who really helps u but devise a few ways to help yourself calm down in such situations when they aren’t around.u know what works best for u and m.sure u will.be able to fight out such nights tc sweetheart.sending lots of love and strength ur way❤❤

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      1. I thought it was a little better today but tomorrow is the day they say will be most difficult. Its hard as I haven’t taken Jasper out for two days as I don’t want to subject him to the smoke but I will have to take him out later. Thanks for the support too.. CA xoxo

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  3. People are always so busy saying ‘calm down’ I don’t think they even take the time to realize what a panic or anxiety attack is like for us. For me, it feels like being faced with a machete wielding maniac and the fight or flight response goes into hyperdrive. Of course, it won’t kill me, but in those moments when I am truly that wrecked with the physical and emotional responses…It really isn’t something you snap out of get over. You just do your best to get through them.

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