I was really hoping to see Dr. Barry this week while eileen is away. I was meant to see her last week but I canceled my apt. I was too anxious to go in. I rang the next day for a new apt, I knew Dr. barry would fit me in this week if she could. Granted she didnt know Eileen was going to be away. But it turned out she put me in for next week instead, so now I dont have much support this week from my team. Eileen is unavailable, and I cant call dr. barry either. I suppose I could ring Sarah if I needed to talk to someone, Sarah is my CPN, she would probably talk to me if I needed her. I am trying to survive as best I can. Its not easy. Its hard to have littl or no support. I really wish I could have seen dr. barry tomorrow. I do have to go up to the hospital to get my shot, but that only takes a few minutes, I’ll be in and out in five or ten minutes. Oh well, it is what it is now. Not much I can do. I just have to try my best to get through the rest of the week, I’ll reach out here if I need to talk. I hope you all dont mind me doing that.