Middle of the night ramble

Good morning gang!
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Its 5 AM. I woke up at 4:30. I couldn't sleep any more. So I got up. I decided I'd slept for long enough, even though in reality I only slept from 1 AM onwards. I decided I didn't need any more sleep. 3 hours was enough.

I woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed. Feeling surprisingly good. I even feel a little bit energised. It feels nice. I'm feeling very happy.

Today mom and me and moms sister are going to go visit my grammas and grandads grave, and take flowers to them. Its my moms mom, and dad. So really we're visiting both of them.

I haven't been at the grave in a while. I usually don't really like to go there. But something told me that I should go today. Mom wanted to, so I said I'd tag along. Maybe when I am there I will ask my nana and grandad to help me with the feelings and the deep depression and suicidal thoughts we're having lately.

I don't pray a lot, but today I think I'll say a few prayers to them.

After we finish at the graveside, we're going to a local lake, and we'll go walking around it. If you walk around the perimeter of the lake its 1 mile. We're planning on walking around it maybe 3 or 4 times. So I will definitely get my exercise in today.

Other than that it will be a quiet day I think. I don't have any other plans today, or for the rest of the weekend actually. I'm kinda thinking I might go visit norma tomorrow, for those who are wondering, norma is my friend, she's blind, and has mental health difficulties, and we are really good friends. I visit her a lot, she's a client of friendly call too. I am the one who referred her to them.

Well I hope you all have a good weekend! At the lake we're going to, there are a lot of ducks, so I may get nice pictures of us feeding them, or of me standing by them. If I do I'll be sure to post some of them here!

Well happy Saturday all!
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Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

6 thoughts on “Middle of the night ramble”

  1. I am so glad that you feel well! πŸ™‚ That’s definitely a good idea to pray for your grandparents’ intercession, I’m sure they’ll be happy to help you, and you don’t even have to be at the cemetery to do that, though that’s really nice of you that you decided to go visit them even though you don’t really like it. πŸ™‚ I hope you’re having a beautiful day. πŸ™‚

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