Working on us prompt, week 7, suicide and suicidal ideation

Becky over at beckys mental mess is doing her working on us mental health prompt series again this week. the prompt for this week, which is week 7 is a prompt about suicide and suicidal ideation.

Prompt #1 Questions

Have you ever experienced suicidal thoughts?
Yes. I experience them a lot. I have done so for years
Have you ever attempted suicide?
Yes. I’ve overdosed on numerous occasions. It was not pleasant. All of my attempts have been overdoses.
Were you ever hospitalized for a suicidal attempt and/or ideation?
Yes. After some of my overdoses I was hospitalised for ongoing medical symptoms. After I got medically cleared I was sent to the psych unit for ongoing treatment for my suicidal ideation. Sometimes I’d spent weeks in there.
when you were hospitalized, what was your experience like?
It was mostly ok. Sometimes it wasnt, but most of the time it was a good experience. At least for the last 6 years that I’ve been seeing dr. barry. She understands me. She gets it and gets how I feel and why I am suicidal. Before I saw her, I had a lot of really bad experiences in hospital.
Do you ever feel suicidal ideation since your release?
Yes. It depends, sometimes I feel it a lot, depends on if I am low, depressed etc. If I am, then the suicidal thoughts come. Thats never pleasant.


Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

9 thoughts on “Working on us prompt, week 7, suicide and suicidal ideation”

  1. Thank you so very much for participating in this most difficult topic of week #7, Prompt #1.
    You have a great support system as Dr. Barry, and Eileen to help you get through a great deal. It’s always wonderful when another knows or shows the effort to help their patients as much as they do.
    I do believe once we have had these thoughts, they never really leave us because they were all-consuming to us at one or two points in our lives. I don’t think of it as much anymore, but every so often it does creep up on me. Especially when I’m at my lowest point. But… I will say this, coping skills have helped significantly over the years and I am so grateful to have them in my toolbox.
    Thank you, again!!!!
    God Bless, Carol Anne!


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