Becky over at beckys mental mess is doing her working on us mental health prompt series again this week. the prompt for this week, which is week 7 is a prompt about suicide and suicidal ideation.
Prompt #1 Questions
Have you ever experienced suicidal thoughts?
Yes. I experience them a lot. I have done so for years
Have you ever attempted suicide?
Yes. I’ve overdosed on numerous occasions. It was not pleasant. All of my attempts have been overdoses.
Were you ever hospitalized for a suicidal attempt and/or ideation?
Yes. After some of my overdoses I was hospitalised for ongoing medical symptoms. After I got medically cleared I was sent to the psych unit for ongoing treatment for my suicidal ideation. Sometimes I’d spent weeks in there.
when you were hospitalized, what was your experience like?
It was mostly ok. Sometimes it wasnt, but most of the time it was a good experience. At least for the last 6 years that I’ve been seeing dr. barry. She understands me. She gets it and gets how I feel and why I am suicidal. Before I saw her, I had a lot of really bad experiences in hospital.
Do you ever feel suicidal ideation since your release?
Yes. It depends, sometimes I feel it a lot, depends on if I am low, depressed etc. If I am, then the suicidal thoughts come. Thats never pleasant.