I feel so broken. I feel lost. Just awful.
Am feeling so depressed. Depressed and overwhelmed.
I slept for all of an hour. I went to bed at 1 AM. Tossed and turned for a while but eventually slept but only for an hour.
I brought Nitro on the bed with me. But he didnt want to stay there with me. He jumped off.
I wish I didnt feel so bad. Its a really horrible place to be in.
I emailed Eileen. She wont get it until tomorrow, I hope she will read it then. Im not sure exactly what day she leaves to go to spain. I was thinking it might be saturday but I dont know. I forgot to ask her.
I have a mentoring apt this morning. I am also working today. I am really having to push myself. I really dont want to go out. I want to stay curled up in my bed at home staring at the four walls. I will go out, but it will be a real struggle for me.
Right now I feel so anxious, and so overwhelmed. And it sucks.