Well I saw dr. barry. We had a great apt. I discussed everything thats been going on for me with her. My symptoms, the anxiety, depression and dissociation. I laid it all out on the table. Told her exactly how I’ve been doing, how I am feeling etc. She listened, and she was very sympathetic.
After talking through everything, she asked me if I’d like to go on something to help with the depression. I said yes I thought that would be a good idea. She said we can try sertraline, or prozac, and how did I feel about going on one of these? I said I would try anything as long as it doesnt make me gain weight. She said then in that case she’d prescribe prozac for me, as that was the least likely to make me gain weight.
She said we’d need to start on 20 mg, and we can increase it to 40 mg over the next couple of weeks. I did tell her I am having a lot of trouble remembering meds, and she knows thats an ongoing issue for me. I said I’d put reminders in my phone, and also that I would ask my mom to help me remember to take them. She said that would be a great idea. I told her that when I had the kidney infection recently my mom had helped me by reminding me to take my antibiotics.
We talked about me missing my last apt. I told her I just couldnt come in due to being so ill with a kidney infection. She told me she’d also been ill on the day of the apt. She had food poisoning and was out and so I would not have seen her if I’d gone in. I felt better knowing she wasnt there on that day, somehow that was a comfort to me. I dont want her to be ill, but knowing I didnt actually miss out on an appointment with her felt good.
We talked about college, I told her what happened with my project. We talked too about the new work initiative that the NCBI are starting, and I told her I was going to participate, she was very positive about it, saying it was a great initiative and would give me great experience, pretty much she said it was a terrific opportunity and I should grab it. She said if things deteriorate I can always pull out of it. I agreed. I’m glad she knows how things are now, so she can keep a close eye on things over the coming weeks.
I’m seeing her again in two weeks. I also got my shot today. I think that will also help. I always feel quite good a day or two after I get it. So I am hoping thats the case again for me this time around.
I feel good though after seeing dr. barry. I feel positive. I feel glad that I was able to tell her everything, and now we have a plan, and I hope the prozac will help my mood and the related depression symptoms.