Omg! I am so pissed! Dissociation sucks! It really fucking sucks!
I was meant to be going to therapy today. I didn’t go! I dissociated and missed my session!
And I didn’t even notice! It totally slipped my mind! Or else someone in the system blocked it from our awareness.
Eileen texted me, asking if I was on my way, as the time we were meant to meet, 11 AM had passed, it was 11:25 by this time! I immediately rang her back apologising! She was concerned as this has never happened before!
I don’t know what to think. I am also concerned.
I think somethings up. I think people from our past may be contacting people inside! And telling them not to go to therapy or to just not show up! That wouldn’t surprise me at all if that was the case.
Eileen talked to us for a few minutes on the phone. Then we said we’d see her on Monday. She said we’d get to the bottom of this then. I hope we can!
I am just so bloody pissed off! Now I haven’t had therapy, and I haven’t seen dr. barry! I have had no one from our team for support this week, oh my god, fucking sucks!