Night time sucks. It really fucking sucks.
I cant sleep. My mind is racing. My thoughts are a jumbled mess.
I’m switching like crazy. We’re really out of sorts tonight. At least my dog is asleep. Nitro is snoring softly, his snores are calming me a little bit.
I really feel awful. I feel so so low. I just want to burst out crying. I wont though. I cant.
I’m too scared that I wont be able to stop when I start. Maybe I should, maybe it’d be good to release the emotion that’s built up.
My day went ok, I mean mostly it was ok. But the anxiety is overwhelming tonight. My parents are both asleep, I’m the only one in the house whose up.
Maybe I can sleep soon. I hope I can.
Depression, and sadness feel so awful, they just totally suck, and I don’t want to feel if this is the way I feel. Its going on for days now, this horrible cycle of emotional overwhelm. I cant stand it.
If anyone is around could use a hug or some support.