it is emily

hhihihihii everybody
its me em. how are you all?
im doing ok I guess
I’ve been feeling emotional tonight
im worried
im worried about going to slimming world
weight and numbers and food and eating all scare me
I want to be thin
but I think we’re not doing enough
I don’t think we’ll be down any weight tomorrow
I feel triggered just thinking about going
but we do need to go
we haven’t been to our group in two weeks now
our consultant texted us last night to ask us where we’ve been
and if we’ll be coming back
I don’t feel very strong this week
not when it comes to food and weight
I feel like if we’re not down i’ll fall apart
I so want to be down a few pounds
any amount will do
if its only 1 pound i’ll be happy
im going to try to not think too much about it
if I do i’ll want to starve myself
that’s not good I know
we had a nice healthy chicken stir fry for dinner
our sister made it for us
it was so yummy
we’ve been pretty good this week
we haven’t had much bad stuff like crisps and chocolate
maybe we’ll be shocked tomorrow night
maybe we’ll actually be down some weight
hoping for the best
butterfly hugs
love
Emily

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

12 thoughts on “it is emily”

  1. Hi, there, Em. I’m glad you had a good dinner. Don’t worry about your weight. Let the big ones do that. Stir-fry sounds yummy. I’m having chicken and french fries tonight for dinner. Hugs. xxx

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  2. Hi, I sure hope you are down but remember, one step one ounce at a time. It’s hard but you can do it, girl. What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others.

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  3. I am hoping you can be down, Em, but even if you won’t, there is always next week, and you have to remember that your weight doesn’t define you. You don’t always have an influence on it. And chicken stir fry sounds lovely, both very yummy and healthy.

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