NOT SLEEPING AM SO TRIGGERED

I’M SO TRIGGERED RIGHT NOW. I CANT SLEEP. I HAVE BEEN UP FOR A WHILE. I WOKE UP SHAKING AND FEELING SO ANXIOUS.
I THINK I’LL STAY UP FOR A WHILE. MAYBE EVEN START MY DAY. EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT 6 AM HERE YET.
I NEED TO TRY TO DISTRACT MYSELF. I FEEL AGITATED, EDGY, ANXIOUS, OVERWHELMED, AND UNSETTLED. I HATE FEELING THIS WAY.
IS ANYONE AWAKE?
LIZ

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

22 thoughts on “NOT SLEEPING AM SO TRIGGERED”

  1. I am so sorry……..those nights are the worse! listening to nature sounds sometimes helps calm me……….Bless you, I have said a prayer that you will be able to feel more relaxed and get a little more sleep.

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  2. Sorry I wasn’t awake to see this. I go through it at least twice a day with some dry heaving. I’m not sure if my ways of coping would be approved by any professionals lol. I know where some of my trauma stems from so I’ll watch a revenge themed movie. If it’s really bad I sit on the floor, rock back and forth, repeatedly saying “It’s ok” til I feel better. I have some healthier options like coloring or making my own jewelry. And there are days I’ve had to take my medication and go back to bed. Panic attacks, anxiety disorders, all of it is much worse than anyone who doesn’t experience them will ever know.

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      1. I started having severe anxiety starting around 8 years old. I didn’t know what it was only that it felt like butterflies in my stomach & a lump in my throat. My twin sister handled our birthday parties for years so I could hide. Back then you were forced to do whatever you were afraid of. The problem was I couldn’t name just 1 thing because it was everything! All of it terrified me.

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