Bee’s Poem of the Day ~ Eat that Frog

Hi there, everybody. How is your day going? I hope life is treating you well and you if you feel it isn’t may you find the solution that will make all the difference.

Last year I have started a different blog over at Weebly which I called “Bee SelfCaring“. My idea was to share ideas about self-care and starting a conversation about how we can get ourselves into a self-care routine.

I am reviewing myself and what I do on a constant basis (you could also say “I criticise myself on a regular basis” 😉 ) and it has occurred to me that self-care is only a part of something that is more important to me: Self-improvement.

In all my blog posts no matter which blog I write for I often write about what I achieved or what I haven’t achieved. I start to think that I am a rather ambitious person even though I do not feel like I am getting anywhere. But hey, feelings are funny things and so often lie to us.

There is nothing wrong with being ambitious or wanting to improve yourself. In fact, it might be what will give me that sense of my purpose in life. It would be great if I could help others to believe in themselves and finding their way of achieving what makes them happy. Until I find that path I keep it with Mr Edison (yes the one with the light bulb): I haven’t failed, I have just found 10 000 ways that haven’t worked!!!

As I currently have no income, no therapy nor the possibility to have a coach I use what I have and start where I am: I have a ton of self-help and improvement books on my kindle and will work myself through them one at a time.  At the moment I read a book called “Eat That Frog” by Brian Tracy. It is brilliant even though it tells you a couple of truths that you might not want to know. Each chapter is finished with a “Eat That Frog List of things to do” and today I took some time to apply some of them. Will be interesting to see if they work. I will keep you updated.

After I finished my review I thought: “That might be a good thing to write a poem about” hence the title of this little poem:

 

Eat That Frog

That thing

you need to do

won’t hop away

like a frog

in the grasses.

 

It’s ugly

I know

but

it really won’t

hop away.

 

It sits there

and looks at you

until

you dare

to eat it

or

throw it at the wall!

 

Happy self-caring & self-improving to you all!!!!

 

 

Author: Bee Halton

Hello, nice to meet you! Please come in, have a cuppa of your favourite beverage and make yourself comfortable. My name is Bee and I am your hostess on an extraordinary journey: the exploration of self and of self-care if that is what you are looking for. I blog at "Bee Selfcaring" and "The Bee Writes..." and I am curious: Where have you come from? And where are you going? You have no clear answer to that? Well, you are not alone. That is exactly the point that I found myself in on a cold January evening in 2018 at my old day job: Sales Assistant in a British supermarket. I was filling up shelves and tables with bread and rolls and suddenly knew I could not do it anymore. I knew I had to leave this job and discover why I was born and what the purpose of my life was. And at the same time, everything inside myself revolted against this knowledge. “I can’t do that! I can’t let Andy (my husband) down!! How would I pay the bills? What on earth am I thinking?!” So I left and called in sick the next morning. It extended to several months after which I tried to come back and just do what I used to do: Subdue my inner voice and keep paying the bills. It didn’t work, as you probably guessed. Since then I have had a thousand ideas of how I could make a living and many job applications which all led to nothing. I have been through fear, frustration and resentment of a situation I felt that I have brought myself in. Most of all, I felt guilty. Guilty that my family struggled/struggles with money and that my husband works like a donkey to keep us going. I felt that I let my loved ones down and that at last, I have shown who I really am: A total loser! I am at rock bottom. I don’t really understand why I am in this place (well, of course, I left my job without having another that’s the obvious bit) however, I believe there is always a reason why we experience certain things. There is a lesson to find in this and I have decided to find the lesson and to find the answers. When I left the day job I was utterly exhausted. Not only on a physical level but on a mental level too. I used to deal with the mental exhaustion with getting help from the Wellbeing service which usually was cognitive behavioural therapy. This time around I could not get therapy. So I decided to work with what I have: A brain that is capable of thinking and the internet which can give me the information I need. And an un-denying connection to powers that are not obviously seen in this physical reality. However, they look. The tools I am using currently to find the answers are daily meditation, working with positive affirmations, daily walks with the dog, gardening, self-help and self-improvement books and writing. Blogging more correctly. And a huge part plays creativity: photography and creating mugs that motivate writers and bloggers to write. My life is a work in progress. Or maybe it is just a proper midlife-crisis. It definitely is a journey and I want to take you with me. Come and see what’s out there. Come and share your experiences and let’s go together. Because journeying and discovering is always more fun together. I = BEE HALTON On a spiritual journey Self and self-care explorer happily married 2 best husband (Jeremy Clarkson voice) in world blogger occasional book reviewer poetess, constant book, quote and blog sharer & proudly owned by @Sherkshound, Also certified Teacher of English as a Second Language Teacher, Sales Assistant with an NVQ in Retail & Diploma in social work with main subject work with the elderly Compared by NARIC as British Bachelor degree standard, Currently learning to code via freeCodeCamp

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