I feel so suicidal. I don’t want to be here. My thoughts are so muddled. I want an end to the pain, I want to stop it all, and stop existing. I just want an end to it. I really don’t want to be here. Woke up feeling like this. I just feel so bad. I’m safe, but the thoughts of dying are there. Ug this sucks.

Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

22 thoughts on “Suicidal”

  1. ugh those thoughts are awful, any idea what’s triggered them? Someone in the system or something that’s happened? Hope you can find something to distract yourself today, plenty of self care and little goals you can achieve. Fingers crossed it eases off soon ((hugs)) xx

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  2. We r here.  U r in this moment.  But u r healing ahd fonding waus around these feelings they put there.  U r taking your power bsck.  U matter.  U r making it out.  

    Plese call T for help.  Or Dr B’s office 


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    1. It’s the weekend, so I can’t, Doctor Barry wouldn’t be there no one would be in her office, and Eileen well I could call Eileen I guess but I’m not going to, I’m distracting instead, it’s working so far


  3. Oh no! Sweetie, Ive been there too many times. This too shall pass. The world cant afford to be without you. You are sharing on here and doing beautiful things. Please hang in there 🖤


  4. Your life is as valuable as anyone else’s. Your emotions and feelings are temporary. You are far better on this earth than not. You’re important, you matter. Even if you don’t feel it now, I promise you this to will pass. And speaking about it, as you’ve found, you are not alone in these feelings and you have support from those in your current position and those who have made it through them which proves again, it’s only temporary.
    Believe in yourself, you’re stronger then you think. I believe in you.

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  5. I hesitated to “like” this, I only did to let you know I am here if you need an ear! I hope you are feeling better now, get on your Netflix and chill out! Us bloggers gotta stick together, girl! Play some hard rock music and dance around. Do you have pets? Give them a cuddle!

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