I feel so suicidal. I don’t want to be here. My thoughts are so muddled. I want an end to the pain, I want to stop it all, and stop existing. I just want an end to it. I really don’t want to be here. Woke up feeling like this. I just feel so bad. I’m safe, but the thoughts of dying are there. Ug this sucks.
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hi know. I woke up feeling exactly the same. So I am doing something to distract myself. Perhaps this could help you too?
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Sorry you woke up feeling the same way but Iām glad Iām not alone. Iām reading. Thatās helping a little bit
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I know how you feel. You are not alone. We are here for you. Ray
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Thank you Ray I appreciate that š
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ugh those thoughts are awful, any idea what’s triggered them? Someone in the system or something that’s happened? Hope you can find something to distract yourself today, plenty of self care and little goals you can achieve. Fingers crossed it eases off soon ((hugs)) xx
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No idea. I think our mood is just low. Not sure why but Iām sure I will figure it out. Yes. Plenty of self-care today I think
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We r here. Ā U r in this moment. Ā But u r healing ahd fonding waus around these feelings they put there. Ā U r taking your power bsck. Ā U matter. Ā U r making it out. Ā
Plese call T for help. Ā Or Dr Bās officeĀ
J
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Itās the weekend, so I canāt, Doctor Barry wouldnāt be there no one would be in her office, and Eileen well I could call Eileen I guess but Iām not going to, Iām distracting instead, itās working so far
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Distraction is one of my best skills for these moods. I can get absorbed into almost anything written. I hope it works well for you.
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It did, thanks! I was able to distract myself. I am very thankful for it. xox
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Oh no! Sweetie, Ive been there too many times. This too shall pass. The world cant afford to be without you. You are sharing on here and doing beautiful things. Please hang in there š¤
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Thanks š you are so sweet to say that. I am hanging in. xox
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Hugs I can relate
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Thanks, Angela. I knew you would. xox
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I know how it feels. I’m with you and thinking of you. Wish I could help you more, but I can only say that I know you’re strong and will overcome it with time, it will pass. Hugs and Mishhugs. š š»
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Thanks. Appreciate the hugs.š
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Your life is as valuable as anyone elseās. Your emotions and feelings are temporary. You are far better on this earth than not. Youāre important, you matter. Even if you donāt feel it now, I promise you this to will pass. And speaking about it, as youāve found, you are not alone in these feelings and you have support from those in your current position and those who have made it through them which proves again, itās only temporary.
Believe in yourself, youāre stronger then you think. I believe in you.
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Thanks, I appreciate your support. š
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I hesitated to “like” this, I only did to let you know I am here if you need an ear! I hope you are feeling better now, get on your Netflix and chill out! Us bloggers gotta stick together, girl! Play some hard rock music and dance around. Do you have pets? Give them a cuddle!
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I do, I have a guide dog, his name is nitro, he is eight years old. Love snuggling with him. Youāre right we have to stick together as bloggers have to stick together š
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At the moment I can relate.
Sending hugs and strength.
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Thank you! Hugs are appreciated! xoxo
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I have been feeling like that for quite a while. I want to tell someone but who do I tell? My parents arent the kind of people who take that srsly and my friends lives were so great before I came along and I keep dragging them into shit like this. Im at a point where I honesty can’t see a future for myself. I have tried making a list of reasons to keep going but I can’t come up with more that 3 or 4 reasons. And the reasons not to live are countless. I feel like if I talk to any of my friends or teachers at school they’ll think I’m attention seeking because that’s part of my reputation as school freak. I just don’t have any motivation to keep going anymore. I give up.
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Dont give up! Things can and do get better! The feelings pass! Its tough when they’re there, but they do pass eventually. Can I ask where your located? Im in Ireland. Do you have a therapist, or psychiatrist?
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Ireland as well, and I’m only 14 so no.
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And you cant talk to your family? what about a teacher, are there any you like and trust? Have you ever rang childline? I used to volunteer for them. they have an online platform also.
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